My limited understanding. . . .

Most people who know me understand that I don't necessarily ascribe to one particular belief system, or have a certain religious title for myself. I used to call myself a Christian for years, but I haven't for about three years now.
A month or so ago, I went to an evangelical church on a Sunday morning, because a very close friend of mine was leading worship. This church is a huge part of her life, and I want to see and understand why. I don't agree with much of the theology or worldview of the church members, but I appreciate their kindness and sincerity.
During the service, I found myself journaling questions. I used to attend my friend's church and journal very cynical questions and thoughts, and it was usually with the purpose of judging the believers. But this time, I found myself writing from a different vantage point, and I was surprised by what I put down on the page:

"Not in a sense of cynicism or judgment, but desire to understand the transcendent again, even beyond the way these evangelicals understand the divine- I have to ask. . . .
If one truly believes that God became human, and this holiday time of year is meant for the remembering of said event, wouldn't that necessitate a counter-cultural time of escape and reflection, apart from the neurotic busyness and disgusting binge of materialism? Wouldn't this idea of divinity succumbing to becoming human radically change someone?
The worship songs today speak of God "ruling over all the earth," but I am driven to question the use of that preposition: OVER. This seems to connote a deity who is only above and removed from creation, nature, even existence and reality. I must ask, how would the logical and arrogantly asserted picture of "God" be changed if these evangelicals dared to imagine that God might be IN nature- that God deeply pervades and consumes it? Perhaps we can learn from the mystics. . . .
What if "salvation" were not the end goal of pursuing new converts to the faith, and what if believers didn't just assume that they are "done" once the prayer has been said? What if it was about a lifelong pursuit of truth and experience of beauty and social change and communal intimacy and redemption and generosity and compassion; all from the posture of humility and acknowledging the continual need for learning
If we ever stop struggling, it is as if we are dead. . . .is it all about the beautiful struggle. . . .
It is assumed that the divine is met in community (which is quite often coupled with noise and artificial emotional stimulation) or else the divine is encountered in silence and solitude, but waht about all the places in between? Shouldn't the divine be encountered in all spaces of life, even the most mundane? To assume that the experience of the divine is only possible in periods of great ecstasy or exhilaration or else in times of great distress or sorrow is an understatement of the nature of the divine. The presence (perhaps not the human perception thereof) of a divine or transcendent being pervades all of life, and it is up to us to search for it and become aware of it."